SINGLE BUT LOOKING

I come to a junction where I have to make a very wise decision for my future. Which is staying in UTM or I have to find other place to continue my study. Yes, I love to study and nothing can stop me from now on (Over my death body!!). And I have choose to live UTM and it is a very hard decision to make. I will talk about what I have select may be in the next post. This time I just want to talk about something that I think that is more valuable then anything. Yes, I could not make every one happy with my decision.

After 4 years of living in UTM, I think it may be it’s time for me to be close to my family. It’s time for me to get a bit close to my parent. After away from them for several years, I think it’s the best time for me to move closer to them. After all they are the most important thing to me. And again it’s a tough decision to make.

4 years of living in UTM people around me are the most lovely people that I ever meet especially the last 2 month. My house mate are the best people I ever know. I just could not imagine how dull my life would be without this people. They never even fail me once during every second they are around me. Pok Nik, Yazid, Hadi and Suhaib are the best friend that I ever have. This are the people will always make my day, even if the day are the worse day of my life.

Knowing this people are the most valuable thing that ever happen in my life. Without them I don’t think that I will be who I am right now. They teach me a lot regardless what ever it is. Friendship, Knowledge, just name it, they are good at it. Forgive me if I have make mistake to any of you. Sorry if I ever hurt any of your feeling with my word.

I am so sorry guys that I have to make the decision. I know there will no other friend like you all. I will never forget all of you. To Pok Nik, mu cepat-cepat la bergewe. Yang kepok lekor tu macam mashuk jek. To Yazid, bila ko nak introduce Fahmi kat family ko? To Hadi, bila nak makan nasi minyak ko ni? By the way, I always love your man boobs and lastly to Suhaib, Hentikan la perbuatan Gaviscon ko tu. Hahaha…. :’(

From now on there will be some changes to this blog. Good change ok. Belum apa-apa dah sakitkan hati taw(chef wanabe,ahha,2005)-apa kaitan aku pun sk tau. The good news is, I will be a new one. I promise myself that I will never say anything bad about woman again. Why? Just don’t ask OKKK. The foul language no longer will be use in this blog. Why? It’s my blog ma, suka hati me la if I don’t want to use it anymore, you AS…..upsss, my bad. Why I did all this? Haiyooo,berapa kali I want to say ma, it’s my blog. Adoi….

This changes are due to(nada gah) I don’t know(nada lemah)…..I guess I need to change to be a better person. I know someone is clapping their hand. Thank you you guys. I love you all. But…do remember this ain’t no joke or funny. This changes is like forever. The “Evilnel” will gone forever. Now the “Angelnel” will rule the world. Wahahaha!!(Eh salah, ya ketawa Evilnel). Hehe…(ya baru ketawa Angelnel).

Adios Amigos!!
Tonight I will be having budjav lebac (just ask Pak Cik Google if you don’t understand)

Have you ever wondered why A, B, C, D, DD, E and F are the letters used to define bra sizes?

If you have wondered why, but couldn’t figure out what the letters stood for… It is about time you became informed:

A … Almost Boobs
B … Barely there.
C … Can’t Complain!
D … Damn!
DD… Double damn!
E … Enormous!
F … Fake

Hahahaha!!

Since this few days everything seems to not right. I decide to take a “break”. I decide to go some place to release all the tension. Somewhere that I feel good about. Somewhere that I can meet someone to talk to. Someone that listen to whatever I say and accept all what I say. Someone that I can touch and rub with full of love. Someone when I smoke beside her and she did not complain at all. I also can hug her with full of love and she don’t care because she understand me so much. When I call her to come to me, she will run as fast as she could. Greeting me with a smile when ever I come to see her. My heart will always melt when ever she is around. I will feel the worm of her love when ever she is beside me. I can sit and talk to her all day. She never fail me although sometime thing is not right. She accept me for who I am and I do accept who ever she is. Where did go and who did see? Stable and horse there.

This is the place where every tension is gone. This is the best place to be. I miss Mummy Jane so much.

To someone that I love the most, thank you for introducing this song to me and thing that she say at the first few second in the video is the most true word. To that someone, I Just Want Somebody to Love Me. Hope that someone understand.

What will you do if everything is FUCKING up with you? What will you do if what ever you are doing someone judge you wrongly? What will you do if what ever you do someone will criticize you? What will you do if something wrong happen and you are the one who to be blame? What What will you do if you are feeling FUCK up? What will you do? What will you do if someone who you love the most see your bad side only and could not accept who you are? What will you do?

For those who comment on the “What Will You Do” the season 1, i am not trying to solve the world’s problem here dude. I am sorry for what happen in the outside world but it is far from my control.

Corinthians 13:4-8: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

A stray dog is always a stray dog, but they have feeling too.

What will you do if something that you die for and suddenly someone say a word and make it the most useless thing in this world. Its been a month I do the research. Come to office earlier, Saturday and Sunday come to lab to do research and no one is paying me to do that. And suddenly it is useless. Honestly to say, YES I love my F**KING(I suppose not to use this word) job. But something that i work so hard and suddenly this thing, it make me moral down. At least say something nice, something like “Ok, it’s good but you need to improve it a lot”. What? Not all research can solve the problem of this world.

When this kind of F**KING thing happen, people around you will absolutely will be effect by it. For example, if you work as hard as that, you would not have any time to spend for your family. In my case, usually I will talk to my Hero and the Queen of my Heart one hour. Then suddenly when you have to work hard like a dog, you will have no time to do that. Then my hero and my queen ask, “Nama lama udah enda telipun Ubek?” what do you expect me to answer them. Ada jadi anak tanggang.

Then I come to a junction where I really have to choose between My future and My family. That is the hardest decision to make. Both are important thing to choose. Everything in the future are depend on those two.

And lastly, what I hate the most, it is absolutely will effect your relationship with your love one. Have you ever love someone and dieing because of that someone and then that someone is not really into you? Understand? Well it is sad, but I really could not do anything. This world is far beyond my control. By the way to that “someone”. Sorry seems to be the hardest word. From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry that i have to say I love you so much right now.

Word of the day: Opinion is like an ass hole, everyone have one.